Saturday, May 06, 2006

MamaSaysOm - Liquid

Dear Britton,

the bittersweet liquid of the heart
I cry because there is so much beauty to behold
I cry because there is so much pain to absorb
I cry because happiness abounds
I cry because sorrow never ends
I bite my lip and hold back
I crumble to the floor and let it flow
I cry in the dark of night where no one can see
I cry in the light of day for everyone to see
I cry because I must
I cry even when I don't really want to
I cry to let go
I cry to renew
I cry because when it's all said and done
when the emotions have been released and
had a fair chance to breathe
I feel lighter
better able to open my heart
to the fullness of life
both bitter and sweet
the sacred liquid of the heart

Counting all the tears
yours and mine


Blogger Josephine said...

If we put all our tears together, maybe we can cry a river to the heavens, and sail away to a new and happy star...

10:53 PM  
Blogger Deb R said...

Beautiful photo!

10:59 PM  
Blogger Lee said...

If you must keep count of teh tears, please make sure the ledger is balanced - smiles, giggles, and laughter deserve a spot in the final tally. As do pride, contentment and love.

2:31 AM  
Blogger Joe said...

You are so diverse girl! What's that song "Cry me a River"

4:18 AM  
Blogger kelly said...

i rarely see my kids cry anymore.
i guess that is just part of growing up.

5:08 AM  
Blogger Tongue in Cheek Antiques said...

A good cry does help!

5:23 AM  
Blogger Colorsonmymind said...

Touching poem dear heart.


5:34 AM  
Blogger acumamakiki said...

Just perfect.

8:00 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...


You don't know me & I don't know you, but I came across your blog because, of all things, Grace Jones' version of La Vie on Rose is one of my favorite songs. The universe & the internet work in mysterious ways.

Anyway, being about the same age (just had my birthday) and having suffered several major clinical depressions in my life, I wanted to write. First of all, you are so brave to reach out by expressing your feelings, please give yourself the credit you deserve. Secondly, in addition to reaching out to friends & seeking professional counsel, I recomend getting out of bed as early as possible each day and getting outside, moving into the sun, even if it's just a walk around the block. I know it can be such a battle, and like some of the other posters, I seem to have spent several years in bed. That's ok, it may take time, but please remeber the sun is your ally. The earth literally does not want you to be in darkness, the sun and light and warmth are here for you. You may feel like your internal compass is a little off kilter these days, but the sun can help lead you back.

Through my expereiences I have learned to remember that
-- you can start your day at anytime, it's never too late.
-- Try to do something brave everyday. Sometimes the bravest thing you can do is get out of bed or call a friend or post online. Whatever the case, do it and then give yourself credit.
-- My grandmother, a European second world war refugee, told me during my first depression that she got through the war, fleeing with 2 kids through several countries, by telling herself over and over, "I am stronger than I know. Through this hell I am only discovering my strength." Well it's true. We are all so much stronger than we realize. And right now you are discovering your strength as you persist through and are tested by this darkness.
-- The other thing I try to remember in hard times, times of darkness, is the image of a butterfly. So you have spent ages in bed? So what? Let this time have been a cocoon. You will find your way to emerge as a beautiful butterfly, leaving this behind.

Remembering your blessings is also admirable, a strategy I've also used. I also encourage you to remember what a blessing YOU are to the many people in your life. You may feel estranged from life right now, but you are so loved, more than you realize. I know the undertow of darkness can seem overwhelming, drowning, but you will find the strength to come out of the tunnel again.

Good Luck.

8:19 AM  
Blogger artmom said...

Yes, yes, mama's are crying all the time. Thank you for such a beautifully written piece of truth. I will copy it into my journal, and someday if my children read my journals maybe they will understand why mama was cryin' all the time.


9:30 AM  
Blogger dani said...

big hug to you!!!!

3:34 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

I loved this line...

"the sacred liquid of the heart"

Oh that is just beautiful and the perfect way to describe tears. This was really lovely hon, and the picture of your beautiful son was stunning.


4:49 PM  
Blogger AscenderRisesAbove said...

nice post and cute photo... did he finish eating it all?

5:58 PM  
Blogger mommy on the verge said...

love this, the photo is adorable.

6:22 PM  
Blogger Tammy said...

Tears have always set me free! This one gave me goosebumps...Excellent!

4:35 PM  

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