Tuesday, November 29, 2005

SPT{Identity-5}


My father's freckles,
my mother's smile,
my grandmother's hands
and somewhere,
mixed in with all these stitched-together pieces
is me
unique
a reflection of all the ones I love,
and yet separate,
an individual living with
their constant presence within
and the legacy of the generations before me--
the ideas, the beliefs, the shadows,
the traditions, the choices, the fear
passed down from parent to child
from some unknown beginning in time.
And sometimes I fight it.
I fight the inheritance that wraps around me like a heavy shroud.
I fight,
trying to sift through all the pieces
to find what's me and mine,
tossing the pieces that don't seem to fit,
clinging to the pieces that truly reflect my core.
Fighting to be certain I"m creating
a life
a self
that belongs to me
and that's not just parts and pieces of someone else,
not wanting to get so lost in them
that I loose me.
Struggling to own the reflection in the mirror,
the beliefs in my heart,
the thoughts and opinions circling my mind,
the desires flooding my soul.
Struggling to own this beautiful expression of being
that is
me.

34 Comments:

Blogger kiki said...

i love this

5:43 PM  
Anonymous courtney said...

You're a converse girl too!!!! What a great way to think of where we came from :)

6:24 PM  
Blogger Michelle Fry said...

Great photos and a great poem about the balance between loving our ancestors and asserting ourselves. I am so in the same place right now. It's not a bad place to be in. It's interesting.

7:21 PM  
Anonymous melanie said...

fabulous post, Michelle...

8:10 PM  
Blogger Deb R said...

Lovely poem and great collection of photos. I especially like the painted toesies and the shiny earrings. :-)

8:59 PM  
Blogger ♥ joleen ♥ said...

I LOVE this self portrait compilation. It's beautiful!

As for your question regarding my collages- you seemed to have achieved it in this collage. I edit my photos with Picasa but them open them all up in Adobe Photoshop. Here, I make one large canvas (420 px x 1500 px) and fit photos into a collage by resizing the images. I hope this helps!

10:30 PM  
Anonymous lela said...

oh, this is so perfectly said... i completely understand... fabulous!!!

i can't believe your sister's name is lela! i have never met another lela in person and most of the lela's i hear of are much, much older. how old is your sister?

oh, wanted to ask... do you have the rss feed for your journal disabled?

10:51 PM  
Blogger dani said...

love the "right on" last shot!

12:23 AM  
Blogger acumamakiki said...

Bravo girlfriend ~ very cool way to end the indentity series!!

2:47 AM  
Anonymous Marilyn said...

"I fight the inheritance that wraps around me like a heavy shroud." Boy oh boy oh BOY, do I do that. But in my best moments, I pretend that emotional well-being is like baldness--that it skips a generation--and I simply focus on my Italian grandmother...and what I've taken from her cue. GREAT collage. :)

4:43 AM  
Blogger gkgirl said...

i love the pictures
and i also love converse
heehee
what you wrote was so true
and worth thinking about...
:)

4:54 AM  
Blogger Cate said...

What a beautiful job you have done in conveying the conflict between being part of a legacy and establishing a unique, individual identity.

And the pictures complement your words perfectly.

5:37 AM  
Anonymous Nicole said...

I lovved this. It is interesting to me that I don't feel some of this, and I wonder if it is because I am adopted. I don't know where my curly hair and fair skin came from, so I can embrace them as my own. Hmmm...

5:54 AM  
Blogger sheela said...

lovely...

6:57 AM  
Anonymous Donna Maria said...

Michelle,
Do you ever listen to Kelly Willis? There is a lovely song called "Talk Like That" that played in my mind while reading your entry. Your lovely entry. Your lovely entry that is uniquely you.

7:08 AM  
Blogger kelly said...

great collage

8:07 AM  
Blogger Heather said...

Beautfully written, cool photo's

8:22 AM  
Blogger Misty Mawn said...

I so much love your posts...you have such a graceful way with words... your honesty is beautiful!

8:45 AM  
Blogger liz elayne said...

beautiful. the poetry of this post is wonderful. "to own the reflection in the mirror" - love that.

9:21 AM  
Blogger mati rose said...

i love this idea and your execution of it! OK, whoa, i definately have been critiquing too much art in artschool to say something like that. it is beautiful, to boot!

9:26 AM  
Blogger Glamorous Jo said...

Love this....very interesting. And the collage is great!

9:27 AM  
Anonymous mary said...

i just love this. i love the idea of showing all the pieces that make up who you are as an individual - the recognition that they all contribute to who you are.

9:57 AM  
Blogger Frankie said...

Wonderful. Just wonderful. Everything you write is so powerful and moving, a reflection of your endless beauty and strength. You never cease to amaze me Michelle.

11:28 AM  
Blogger Server Girl said...

i love the pic collages...they are so cool!

1:04 PM  
Blogger laurenbove said...

this is a beautiful montage. I adore the black and white of your hands.

You have such a great spirit about you. I always feel good coming here.

Mwah!

1:24 PM  
Blogger Shell said...

Wonderful and inspiring!

3:18 PM  
Blogger melba said...

Powerful! I loved the photos and your writing. I can totally relate to your expression - well done!

4:06 PM  
Blogger Swirly said...

Absolutely beautiful. This sums up how I so often feel - struggling to create my own self, trying to honor what I love in my family but also avoid the pitfalls they've experienced.

And I have my grandma's hands too.

4:30 PM  
Blogger Trish said...

I love the Collage and the poem! how do you do this everyday? :O)

7:14 PM  
Blogger andrea said...

what a beautiful SPT.

I have always found it to be such an amazing thing- the idea that we are made up of so many different unique aspects of family members that have come before us. I just love that. but also, we are completely individual. with our own characteristics that we'll pass down through the generations.

lovely to see all these pieces of you.

8:01 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Cool. You're hot.

8:31 PM  
Blogger Kim Carney said...

Glorious, I think that is the right word to describe your SPT!

9:26 PM  
Blogger firstborn studio said...

you never fail to blow me away....so glad i found you!

3:50 AM  
Blogger red sun said...

inspirational !

7:01 AM  

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